MONDAY

today had lessons all the way till 1.30pm.
feel real sleepy during chem lesson.

cant believe i actually slept during chem for lyk bout a min?

first time sleeping in class.

really damn sleepy.

couldnt control my awakeness.

wanted to buy sweets but tak kesempatan.

cca after skul.

totally have no mood.

really.

feel lyk quiting. but telling myself not to.

its like i have nth more to do in this cca.

want to attend course but i also not able to.

the juniors can lyk step over my head very soon already.

feel no fun in during cca.

thats the worse part.

so today i really have no mood.

daryan said 'its never too late'

but wad shud i do?

i need to have a friend to guide me through this cca.

a friend to influence me.

but all my sec3 members loosing interest already.

and im goin to fall into it soon.

its lyk no hope in this cca.

i once have my interest.

but now its gone.

the sec3s only do admin stuffs.

want to fly on mondays also cnnt.

the sec2s are so eager to fly on that day. (which is a good thing)

want to fly on sat but got tuition.

haiz.

since the incidence where i got the BAD headache, my skills on flying CL drop.

ccas are meant to have fun.

now i see why the rest of my fellow sec3 members feel.

went home wonder of to dreamland for lyk about an hour?

then woke up do hmwrk.

but feel lyk not wanting to do so.

i tell all my feelings to him.

and kinda feel that he told mrs goh.

well its good if he does.

so the teachers noe how me and the rest of e sec3 batch feel.

if he doesnt, its fine.

atleast somebody noe it than no one.

im happy in interact.

coz its fun.

im not happy in yfc.

coz it isnt fun

im happy in prefects.

coz its fun.

the main thing is to have FUN.

but now, one FUN had gone.